MEMORY - 30 Days Shipping Challenge - Day 7
I mentioned on my previous blogs that as much as possible, I’d try to do this 30 days challenge in consecutive days. But I failed after day 6 so I’ll try again starting here with day 7. BEWARE OF SPOILERS
Day 7: The most heartbreaking scene.
For today’s challenge, it took a bit of my time to decide. In fact, after a lot of thinking, I only managed to narrow down to two pairs. But after a self-debate, I decided to talk about Yano Motoharu and Nanami Takahashi of Bokura ga Ita.
If I am not mistaken, I was around grade five (10-11 y/o) when this was aired on a local anime television. On the commercial, Bokura Ga Ita was described as one of the famous and best selling shoujo mangas in Japan. The plot wasn’t really discussed but the information given is that it’s about a sweet couple’s life.
I had no idea on what this anime was about but because I found the art rather cute, I decided to watch it. But because I had school and the airing time is within school hours, I wasn’t able to. But luckily after a year, it was re-aired. Finally able to watch it, it was one of the best moments of my life.
This is one of the anime that I got myself addicted to. I found myself thinking about it every second of the day. Praising the characters, smiling, tearing up on sad scenes and waiting for the episode to be aired the next day. Back then, we had no internet yet so the only thing that gave me BGI is the television (thank you great anime channel!).
I waited each day just to watch it’s episode. And I just grew to love the series.
Yano Motoharu. Popular and handsome. He gives off a playboy vibe and at the same time, a carefree and lovable guy vibe. Yet despite these vibes, he’s in a dilemma of trust. His attitude did not impress me at first but soon found them justifiable after learning about his past. (ex-girlfriend; trust issues)
Nanami Takahashi. Not the most beautiful, smartest or the most outcast in the series. Just your typical girl; unlike any other stereotype female protagonist in other shoujo series. She’s described as cute and baby-faced. She shares the same name as Yano’s ex-girlfriend. She dislikes Yano at first but soon falls in love with him after circumstances and interactions.
The couple didn’t start smoothly. In fact, Nana was rejected at first. She just decides to be by his side even not as a girlfriend, but as someone who cares about him. But Yano realizes that he’s already fallen for her. And finally, they go out officially.
The two deal with adjustments and problems. Adjustments within themselves, to each other and to everyone else in their background. Problems arise, when more of Yano’s past was revealed regarding his ex-girlfriend Nana, his ex-girlfriend’s sister Yuri, and when Yano’s bestfriend fall for Nanami.
Honestly, when I reached the part of Yano’s past, I had a hard time even if I wasn’t in the situation and even if I was at a young age back then. For some reason, I felt myself standing in Nana’s shoes and getting a stab on my chest. That’s why I understood why they had a cool off.
As each episode airs, I feel myself getting more and more engrossed. It amazes me how Nanami and Yano are willing to improve themselves for each other. They are not perfect. Nor are they perfect for each other. But they are determined to be with each other.
Now… for today’s theme? Why this pair?
I remember this episode when Yano and Nana were talking about memories. And I believe this is one of the things that made Yano a unique and deep character. Nana says she thinks memories are wonderful.
And Yano says, “Human memories are too vague. Thinking something has color when it doesn’t, making things more dramatic than they really are, glorifying things… It gives new greater meaning than was actually there. That’s why I don’t believe any of this talk about beautiful memories.”
Another is “I’ve always been asking myself this question. Am I a memory? or is the memory… me? Are we nothing but a collection of memories?”
Enter, episode 26, finale - We were there.
For some reason… before this episode aired, I had a bad feeling. On episode 25, giving the next episode preview, finally the meaning of Bokura Ga Ita was revealed to me. It meant “We Were There”
And I just… found it rather sorrowful. We were there meant something that’s already in the past. I started thinking… does that mean Yano and Nana’s relationship is something in the past?
The next day… I finished the series and I swear, I cried buckets of tears.
The episode shows Yano and Nana’s inevitable separation. Yano has to leave. Nana has to stay. And what were Yano’s words? “Ever since I met you, I believe, I was meant to meet you.”
And this little scene with the bullet train doors closing right between them? Nana chasing the train… Yano running back… and the last scene with Nana unable to do anything but to stare at the train? It was the most heartbreaking scene I’ve ever witnessed. Until now… nothing has matched the pain and sadness I felt back then. Why? Why do they have to separate? They are both in love with each other right? They are committed to each other. But why?
They learnt everything together. They managed to be who they are because they had each other. They accepted whatever each other’s flaws. Past, present, decisions, everything… but why?
When credits were shown, everything just got back to me. Their beginning, neutral moments, falling in love, when they became a couple, their happy moments, sad moments, and lastly… “We were there…”
Suddenly everything started to make sense. Yano’s beliefs, words, feelings, everything. And all I could do back then was to not accept that my favorite anime’s ending is like this. I did think I was a bit over acting considering that they aren’t even real. But I don’t regret those tears. This story, fiction o nonfiction, real or unreal, it touched my heart.
I found myself crying again. Not because I still couldn’t get over but because, there is a continuation. Since we finally have internet access, I found the continuation. And up to this time, I managed to finish this piece when Yuuki Obata-sensei finally ended it.
Truly Bokura ga Ita is a masterpiece. Several years ago, I thought episode 26 is the official ending of Bokura Ga Ita. But I am just so joyful that it had a continuation. And yet despite the happy ending of this series, the train scene? It’ll always be in my memory. And it’ll always be the most heartbreaking scene.
Day 7 - Yano Motoharu x Nanami Takahashi - MEMORY - Challenge 7 done
(I teared up after typing this :))) reminiscing this piece truly made me emotional)